What A Weekend!!!

So this weekend! Guess what what we did? Not a damn thing! This was the best weekend that we had in a while! The only down side to the weekend is that I woke up at 7:00am on Saturday. I walk into the living room and Will is watching this show on HBO called 6 Feet Under. What a freaking show man! The people on this show are so screwed up that it makes your life seem great no matter how fucked up you are. There is no way that you could be worse than the people on this damn show!

So now due to the watching of six episodes of this show, Will and I now have a new addiction. Some people say that addiction may be bad. Some people say that addiction and laughing at the misfortion of others is bad, NOT! Laughing at how fucked up the people on this show were made my day so much better and gave me a great start to my weekend.

Zac and I go to the grocery store that afternoon and I sware we got enough food to loat us about three weeks. In all reality this will last us about 2 weeks. It is nice to have a pantry full of food. I seriously think in the 5 months that we have lived with each other this was our first trip to a store where we just cruised the isles and actually did a real shopping trip. NICE! yay!

That night we had a few people over and watched TV and chilled, had a few drinks. Nice night.

On Sunday we didn't do a shittin thing. Sunday night we woke up ate, took a nap, the later we went and sat at starbucks with Candice for a few hours. My friend from highschool joined us for a little while. Now that puts us where we are right now, WaTCHING ToURGASM!! GOOD NIGHT EVERY ONE!

Damn this Feeling

Once every so often I begin to feel manic. I Get really sad and want to cry then that turns to anger and every little thing that someone does pisses me off. Even some one I subconciously dont like, if they talk to me I want to tell them to go to hell.

I do not know why this happens and I dont like the way that it makes me feel. I really shouldnt have anything to get mad about, I have a wonderful life! My boyfriend is amazing and I know that he would do anything for me. I know that it hurts him when I get like this because not intentionally I might take a little of my frustration out on him. I hope he knows that none of my anger is directed to him.. Infact, if it were not for him I might actually have a break down right this second. I know that he gives me ideas of how calm down but i tottaly ignore them because I am so freaked out. I hope he knows that I love him with all of my heart and that I am sorry for anything mean I say right now!

My health insurance kicks in next month and I know that I need to go to the doctor so he can tell me that i am officially fucked up in the head. Whats new right? I think I need to be on some sort of medication so I do not get like this. What a horrible feeling to have, I need meds to be ok? Damn I am fucked up.

All I can say is that I feel like I am about to have a mental break down! What am I suppsoe to do? I am at work and have another 4 hours to go. Damn this late night shit! Am i suppsoe to go to my boss and be like "Um, excuse me, can I leave before I have a breakdown and loose my damn mind?" I really do not think that would fly to well here. Granted this guy is the best boss that I have ever had, I still do not think that he would be ok with that. Ya know?

Ok so I guess it is time for my ass to stop rambling before I start to cry. Oh and can you believe I typed this whole damn thing with out lookin at the freakin keyboard! I must be stressed!! GOD HELP ME TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE REST OF THE DAY~~~

This is new!

This is a new start! I have never been really good at the whole blog thing, but I discover the more that I write the better mood I tend to be in because I can express myself in words better than I can by speaking.
I am about to move in 7 days to a new apartment with my boyfriend and our roommate, Will. As of yesterday I turned in they keys to my apartment that I honestly hadn't slept at in over 3 months. If was such a reliefe to know that I won't have to deal with that hell hole any more! The people there are so full of themselves and they tried to charge me $25.00 for a key! I can go to walmart and have one made for $0.99! Anyways!
Things in my life are looking nothing but up! Ever since I met Zac my life has been climbing this stairecase of amazing things! I have an amazing job, which I also found out does tuition reimbursment after 6 months of employment, so not only am i making amazing money I am about to be able to start school for free. We are moving into this massive apartment that when they were oringinally built they were made to be sold as condos! 1355 sq ft! This sucker is huge. On top of that one of our really good friends lives there to, so I will have a girl to chill with when I need to get away from the boys.
Zac is such an amazing man! No matter what he can always make me smile! I love him with all of my heart and I feel truley blessed with him! Not only did I gain an amazing man, i also gained his wonderful family. His mom is so cool, and his dad is a total sweety! His sister is so freaking cool to hang out with! I sawre we shopped for hours a couple of fridays ago!
Well I should go! but wow... sorry this was so long!!